Hey boys and girls in drugland and Hollywood, sober and clean, stoned and freaky, drunk and sloppy, wiggin’ and tweaked, plastered and tipsy, g-holed and passed out. My name is Stan and I have been clean from methamphetamine for over one year and six months. Exciting news for sure but what I’m even more excited about this moment: today was the last day of classes. Who would have thunk; just two and a half years ago I had no direction, purposeless, defeated, depressed and fried. Today I have finished a rigorous year of studies and have survived. I think part of my enthusiasm is part because of have this goal or objective in my life, secondly I get to challenge myself with classes and get rewarded for my hard work. When I was using crystal a standard line of mine was how bored I was, well it’s really hard to be bored when I have something challenging going on, although I was stressed on numerous occasions it was manageable.
In two weeks finals week will be over and I will hopefully start an internship for the summer. God I haven’t been to an AA or CMA meeting for about two months, I will check those out this summer see how they grab me, smell the meth that eeks from the newcomers body and be so grateful to have a coherent thought and to appreciate the smell of my hair care product. The last couple of weeks I have taken some time out of the day just to sit in the main quad area to watch and enjoy campus life, to sit and enjoy what is happening to me, at me, on me, over me, in me is too thrilling for words. On one of those days I was just overcome by good feelings and started to cry and it felt so good. This was a joyous moment that affirmed to me that I was in the right place, doing the right thing and going in the right direction. What an amazing life it is today.