I just got back from a Crystal Meth Anonymous (CMA) meeting. There were probably 100 people at this Monday night meeting being held on the 1st day of the New Year. What can I say I was craving a meeting; it sure is a lot different than craving a blast or rig. It was a “beginners meeting” and the format has 4 people who have less than 6 months clean talk about their experience, strength and hope. Six months in CMA is actually quite a long time, 1 year is huge and 2 years is the big one. I have one year 3 months and 29 days. I felt like I had a whole bunch of sobriety in that room tonight, why I can only guess. I think I’m getting more comfortable with me and being in those rooms. Tonight I enjoyed listening to some whorrore stories and didn’t raise an eyebrow once. Not that I’m above that sort of thing it’s just after so many years listening to the same stuff it becomes a bit rote. It felt real tonight even though one of the guys who spoke was so full of his story he forgot to relay his truths, this is an observation. I will always sit with amazement at how some of these newcomers can really speak the truth, the kind of truth that gives people glimpses into your heart and soul. This kind of truth is difficult because as addicts we usually have been stuffing the truth with drugs and really haven’t had much practice. So when you have those damning, shameful, truths spoken regardless of the message – that is the message. Someone who is able to be open to the universe and share his soul with other addicts is a beautiful thing and this is why I keep going back. Happy New Year and I wish everyone peace, health and prosperity.