One semester down and three to go. I now know why a lot of people looked at me with that *areyoufuckingcrazy* look when I told them I was going back to school at fifty years old. I’ve been stressed out during my finals weeks and also got to watch a lot of kids who were are also stressed out and sometimes for some very rigid reasons. How about the girl who was so stressed because she would get a B, - 3 A’s and 1 B, whoa, scary right? When she told me I started to laugh, not a helpful response to give someone who’s whole world from day one consisted of getting into the right university. She got into the right University. Her parents will pay about $350,000 just for her undergraduate degree. She’s a premed and would not settle for anything less than 4.0, how do you tell someone that one B will not change her life - since her whole life has been getting to this place. Just being an ear for this sweet girl gave me much needed perspective on my own life goals and reminded me how difficult things could be. At least it’s just me, telling myself at times that I’m not doing well enough. I then remind myself to be different if I didn’t like the result, that’s the lesson. I have that luxury of knowing that I learn by my mistakes, that I have survived from life’s little/big set backs. And speaking of perspective, on this winter recess I think I will go to a few 12 meetings to see what it looks like to be an addict. I’ll also let them see what it looks like to be 1 year and 3 months sober off the Meth, she moves, she grooves, she bobs and weaves. Walking around this university I see privileged Caucasians who binge drink, most of them think crystal is something you hang from a string and put in your window. No dear I’m not talking about quartz this shit is made in Mexican superlabs, 400 pounds a batch and then smuggled up and dumped right here in LA . So I’ll go to a few meetings, feel incomplete and say I’ll never go again. I always do because I love to feel incomplete it makes me so, complete! I’m so happy this semester is over and am looking forward to these 3 weeks of not doing anything. I wish you all Happy Holidays. Peace.