****Hot, masculine white dude, 42 YO. PNP for days. Tall, lean, nasty white guy looking to hook up with hot white guys into water sports, amped raunchy and slamming.**** This was the flavor of the sex ads I would post just a year and a half ago.
This was written at a time when I was Hiiiiiiiiiii. First of all let’s look at “hot and masculine”, I see Russell Crowe or Hugh Jackman not milk toast Mary. I need to be a little self deprecating here because when looking back at these ads I find myself amazed at the deception. I sold myself 6 years younger, even when I was 39 I published 33, I thought I could get away with it, nobody ever called me on it – to my face. Most of it deceit, an infinitesimal amount was true and all of it was for one purpose, to get high on meth and maybe if our crystal dicks worked - get off. There were many times when guys would come over and it was a different person than their picture portrayed. Can you imagine the dishonesty that unfolds in land of the internet? If the person who showed up was “doable” then I didn’t question the validity of the picture – who cares but hey, why didn’t you use your own photo your kind of hot?
There are many replies to this question but only one real answer, “the person who I really am is not worthy sooooo, I shall be someone else.

So today I was thinking damn bitch I’m Horny and Lonely how am I ever going to get back into the game. I know I want to do it differently, you think! – it would include being honest, have some dates and make sure they understand what my intentions are. What are my intentions? To be intimate with a man without the use of stimulants – I haven’t done that for 10 years. That seems improbable but that’s what has happened, 1 year became 5 and 5 became 10 years. So here is my first step back into the queer life. My first published ad for a date. ****Living again and loving it. I’m handsome 50 year old man, 6’2”, 185, Swiss and English heritage. HIV seroconverted 10 years ago which took me into substance abuse freefall. Today I am recovered; I haven’t used for 1 year and 2 month and have no plans on ever using again. I decided to reinvest in my life and acquire skills so that I can give back to a Universe that has been so forgiving and kind to me. I’m not quite sure how that looks but I have faith in the steps I’m taking. Currently I’m a junior at University of Southern California, majoring in psychology and plan on going for my masters in social work or Health Prevention, hopefully at SC. I enjoy family and friends, enjoy conversation and have great interpersonal communication skills. I love to laugh and would hope that you do to. I’m not looking for someone who is clean and sober but will not date anybody who has a problem with substance. I enjoy cafes, movies, USC football.**** That seems easy enough but is it sexy, will it sell.