Today after about 100 days clean and sober and not having had too many cravings, I was "this" close to using. And all because of three little letters: s-e-x. Actually, if I dug deeper, I'd have to say it was because of boredom. And if I dug deeper still, I'd recognize that it was really due to loneliness, a condition I'm beginning to understand and believe results from a "faulty" spiritual connection.